Here we go again

My dark passenger is back in some shape or another. I've been weak and lazy the last few days and it's costing me again. Anxiety is one thing. Anxiety with a very active thought process is another. And because I don't have anything really significant or tangible to keep me distracted it just gets worse. I hate this feeling, I've had it far too much the last few months. It's not fair, but what is. And just when I thought things were getting better, that I was ok accepting everything, that whatever happens is outside of my control it slowly grinds me down and rips me back into the black. It makes me think things I shouldn't, makes me want to inflict hurt which isn't who I am, it makes me angry and I don't want to be angry...

It's strange telling those around you to only accept love and look for the happiness around them when all you want to do is take that anger and justify inflicting damage on those that have wronged you...

I can't let it win though, not for now at least, I must leave the wheel turning since it is making its way around.